I have a lot of half-finished thoughts.
Some are about security, programming, systems, books, or whatever thing I am currently trying to understand, but a lot are about life. Sometimes existential. Often existential.
I am pretty sure writing helps with that, since it forces me to think things through. As someone with ADHD, I am not always the biggest fan of thinking things through. As someone who also has autism, I am the biggest fan of thinking things through.
It is complicated.
Anyway, writing. I never do it.
In my head a thought feels finished, but then I try to write it down and it turns out I had not really figured it out in the slightest. Trying to get better at that is probably the main reason for this blog.
The other reason is AI.
I use AI a lot, both at work, where I am involved in how we apply it to offensive security, and outside of work, where I use it for side projects, design ideas, code, and plenty of other things. This site also came together mostly by describing what I wanted and iterating on it, which is immensely cool and still blows my mind.
It also makes me want to be a bit more deliberate about what I do not hand over. I use AI to help with the writing here too, since getting a thought onto a page is apparently a whole separate skill from having it, but I do not want this blog to become a place where I outsource having an opinion. I like tools, but the thinking has to stay mine.
So that is the plan. Write things down, find out how little I had actually figured out, repeat. I think.